Friday, April 21, 2006
the going to bed epic
ok. i fully closed baby's bed last night at 9pm, in an effort to protect him from kitchen noise. later i fully closed our bedroom door at 11:45pm. i never do these things. I woke up at 7:30am today and realized I slept through the night! me! the sad thing is, i have no idea if baby did too, b/c I had turned the volume on the monitor to low. yes, i do feel like a heel. BUT, two nights ago i decided enough is enough and this child will be turning one soon, he needs to learn to sleep through the night. i know, i know, shame falls on me, oh how the baby nazi books will be so angry with me, how the pages of knowledge shrivel in horror when i, the true mother sinner, flip through the sections on night sleeping. whatev. i don't have a schedule, i co-slept with baby for over 6 months and he never really drank from a bottle. but guess what? he is the best baby ever! EVER! so i feel that my mothering instincts, however misguided dr. sears and the others may think they are, seem fine. and my visions of potential disaster are slowing down, so i think that means my self-diagnosed PPD is getting ready for a summer vacation. oh yeah, baby is not up yet! i will fill you in on the kitchen remodeling nightmare soon soon, it's just not the right time. plus, i don't argue with women. yes, that was actually said to me. that will have to keep you thinking for a few days, until i get my strength back. hours baby steven cried wednesday night, not to be rescued: .75, days til next soccer game: 2.
ok. i fully closed baby's bed last night at 9pm, in an effort to protect him from kitchen noise. later i fully closed our bedroom door at 11:45pm. i never do these things. I woke up at 7:30am today and realized I slept through the night! me! the sad thing is, i have no idea if baby did too, b/c I had turned the volume on the monitor to low. yes, i do feel like a heel. BUT, two nights ago i decided enough is enough and this child will be turning one soon, he needs to learn to sleep through the night. i know, i know, shame falls on me, oh how the baby nazi books will be so angry with me, how the pages of knowledge shrivel in horror when i, the true mother sinner, flip through the sections on night sleeping. whatev. i don't have a schedule, i co-slept with baby for over 6 months and he never really drank from a bottle. but guess what? he is the best baby ever! EVER! so i feel that my mothering instincts, however misguided dr. sears and the others may think they are, seem fine. and my visions of potential disaster are slowing down, so i think that means my self-diagnosed PPD is getting ready for a summer vacation. oh yeah, baby is not up yet! i will fill you in on the kitchen remodeling nightmare soon soon, it's just not the right time. plus, i don't argue with women. yes, that was actually said to me. that will have to keep you thinking for a few days, until i get my strength back. hours baby steven cried wednesday night, not to be rescued: .75, days til next soccer game: 2.
